when god says, "bet."

“oh you of little faith, why did you doubt?” // matt 14:31

before this morning, i had always read this scripture as jesus asking peter why he doubted HIM. but i was listening to a podcast this morning that completely opened my eyes.
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in this moment, jesus was walking on the water, and peter asked jesus to command him to walk like him.
jesus  responded, "bet."
[just kidding, he said, "come", but basically the same thing].
he reached out his hand and brought peter out of the comforts of a boat and into the unknowns of turbulent + deep waters.
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at first, peter was doing GREAT [as we all do when we first start doing something🤪] until the waves and winds started to pick up

here’s the kicker though—-did peter REALLY doubt jesus? the one who wasn’t even sinking...or HIMSELF? 
i think he lost confidence that he could really do what jesus called him to do. 
here’s what I LOVE though—jesus believes in us, more than we even do ourselves
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honestly, starting out with this page, i was SO excited, so inspired and so ready to help as many people as i could. i felt called by jesus, out of the boat of my own insecurities and doubt. 
i felt great, i loved to make new blogs and posts, etc. 
but, as each day passed by i grew more afraid and paralyzed by fear of rejection and mediocrity. 
this morning really woke me up. jesus believes in ME, he believes in YOU.

what boat did you step out of maybe a long time ago but because of self-doubt you deemed yourself incapable? was it recovery? a new mindset? a thankfulness journal? making new, deep friendships? freedom from sin? 
not sure what yours is, but i know i have a few [but really, more like a ton!]
​i know i definitely want to post more—without fear of being less than perfect, to stay in recovery and deepen my human need for friendships!!
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SO thankful we have a savior that challenges us, loves, dreams for, + believes in us more than we ever could ourselves🌞💛🤙🏽